Daily Thoughts, Mental Health

languishing: 2021 theme emotion

“Languishing is a sense of stagnation and emptiness. It feels as if you’re muddling through your days, looking at your life through a foggy windshield. And it might be the dominant emotion of 2021.”

Adam Grant – The New York Times

This pandemic situation is not easy for all of us. Sometimes we feel like doing monotonous life all the time and this indescribable void feeling strikes us. The uncomfortable feeling of not achieving something, doing mundane things in daily basis. It’s not burnout (yet), but somehow we just feel empty or aimless. Actually there’s this term for that feeling: languishing. It is in-between state where you’re not depressed but not feeling happy either.

Have you ever staying up until late to do something else other than sleeping? Even though you already feels very sleepy. I think recently I’ve done it too many times. Sacrificing my sleep time in order to reclaim the freedom of my free time in day time, it’s sometimes just drawing or watching or scrolling through social media. Feeling “productive” if I could against my nature of having break. Considered sleeping is unproductive and feeling guilty about it.

There’s actually this Chinese expression that can correspond with this circumstance. It is 報復性熬夜 ‘bàofùxìng áoyè’ – or ‘revenge bedtime procrastination’. The phrase, which literally translated as ‘retaliatory staying up late’.

Then, what’s the cure for this languishing thing? How to avoid it so it wouldn’t worsen to be depression? At least, it is good that we’ve given a name to this condition, so people aware and conscious about it. According to The New York Times, “flow” state can be the antidote to languishing. Enter the “flow” state where your concept of time, place, even self melts away. To maintain the pre-pandemic happiness, we have to be more immersed to our projects. Focusing your mind on task on hand, so the other things become insignificant for awhile. Give yourself some specific uninterrupted time.

I just remember this phrase from somewhere. When your body moves, your mind tends to be more passive. While your body don’t move, your mind becomes more active and then the overthinking loops happen. So, doing some physical activity can be very helpful, too.

Other suggestion is to focus on small goals. I have this little note for myself in the mirror written “Make your first small step today 👣”. As I grew older, I become more understand of my pattern habit. Most of the time I struggled to make action into reality is because my to-do-list is too overwhelming. I aimed something so big, like for example, making this blog, it’s already on my to-do-list since years ago. But now, I tried different approach to make my goals smaller and aimed for the nearest step that I can do. I changed my to-do-list become more specific, such as “write about “xxx” and just press the publish button, don’t worry, you can edit it anytime.” And here you go, I’m still very doubtful with my writing and what I want to do exactly with this thing. However, I just try to push myself to really doing something real, and not just think about it only.

We all have to start somewhere, and doing something better than nothing at all. Start small so you don’t discouraged and give up. Remember it is all about consistency.

– Khloe Kardashian

Take control of yourself. Challenge and push yourself a little bit more. You don’t have to do the important work, just choosing to do things that meaningful to you, it’s enough. Small yet meaningful. So, what matters to you most?

Study in Taiwan, Working in Taiwan

living abroad

Hi, welcome to my very first post~ So here I am deciding to write a blog. Actually, this writing thing has always been in my mind since a long time ago, but never took it seriously :”)

So, here I am~ just want to share a lil bit of my life update at present time. Hope you enjoy reading it!

I am from Indonesia and currently living in Taipei, Taiwan. Initially, I came to take master degree majoring in Architecture. Then two years after, which is this year, I (finally) graduated~ Right now, I work at a local architecture firm here. Overall I enjoy my life in this small yet rugged island.

Btw, this is the first time I live outside of my house. Living abroad is one of my biggest dreams since I was kid. In the past I always dreamt and wondered how would it be to live somewhere far from home. “It would be very fun!” I thought at that time. Hmm… if I’m able to tell my past self, what would I tell her? “Yes, it is. You will have so much fun, but not all the time 😝 most of the time you would be working very hard to achieve the fun part. So just prepare yourself ☺️”

My story in Taiwan began after my bachelor graduation. I took a gap period of 5 months after it to prepare everything I need to live in Taiwan. Then, I decided to apply master degree in two universities in Taiwan, which are NTUST in Taipei and Fengchia University in Taichung. Since it was Spring admission, so my options were limited. What my focus when choosing university: the world ranking, Taiwan ranking, department ranking, scholarship they offer, what department open for Spring, do they offer English program (since I couldn’t speak Chinese at all).

Here’s useful website I often used as reference at that time:

The plus point of most scholarships in Taiwan is that they don’t require you to have contract after graduation. So it’s free to choose whether you want to live or work everywhere after the graduation. Usually after graduation, most people that I know want to have work experience first in Taiwan and save some money, of course, since salary rate here was quite high compared to Indonesia, but the amount really depends on which field you are.

From my experience, applying job in Taiwan as foreigners who graduated from Taiwanese university is quite tricky. In one side, your alma mater was highly appreciated by the recruiter, they think highly of the university name written on your CV, especially if your university is top ranked. On the other hand, in my case, you are considered as the same as Taiwanese and required to be able to communicate using Mandarin, at least, on basic conversation level. If you don’t have ability to speak Chinese at all, you would be very hard to get accepted unless you are very lucky!

In future post, I want to share my experience of applying work permit as full time job position in Taiwan. Since my current company had never hired foreigner before, they helped me from beginning to make work permit for the first time. It was quite long journey because of lack of some documents and the information about the requirements are not that clear.

My main source of information about applying work permit were from the office located in Ximen area and also this website:


That’s all for now, hope you enjoy your day!